I found these in the last week, thought it worthy to share...
There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. -Carl Jung
Our attitude towards life determines life's attitude towards us. -Earl Nightingale
Please, tell me your thoughts???
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Life changes....
The last month has been one hell of a ride. So much, all at once, changes, so many changes.... and I have just tried to go with the flow.... in some of it.... not with a lot of grace.
Any time that you move... even just next door... it is a clearing of things, and a cleansing of your soul... at first, I had such a hard time... I wasn't quite ready to address some of my issues, material-wise, I had so much crap... not that it was crap, just not useful to me... but I didn't take the time to rid myself of it.... and it's ironic, I finally went through everything, and still the things I brought to the new apartment, I look at it... and really.... still so much, that I don't need... and don't need to carry. In the same week that we finally got moved, completely, I was pushed to the brink of my sanity... I am not proud of those moments.... and emotionally, I was on a ride I did not ask for or expect. A few months ago, Emma's dad and I agreed to let her be with him for a year, give them a chance to get to know each other, and her family with him. Due to the transitions in his own life, we could not make that transition then, well, suffice it to say, Emma was not satisfied with that answer... last week, she went to live with her family. It's still the honeymoon period, but they all seem to be adjusting well, and getting along. Helps me to feel better about my decision, that I made the correct one. She has wanted a family for so long.... so so long, and I haven't been able to give her what she needs, I have felt like I failed her, I had to concede that her dad could and would give her what she needs and wants... a family with two parents and her sisters. Emotionally, the transitions are helping to clear out the garbage... all the things that no longer serve a purpose for me.... learn the lessons that I needed to or heal the pain.... let it go and move on.... I haven't settled myself in the new apartment, and without Emma seems so empty and quiet.... I don't like the quiet to be honest. It is a time now, for me to get to know myself, who I am, and what I truly desire, I know what I desire, it is just a matter of attaining those goals, healing and growing in my personal relationships, and learning how to take care of myself... it's strange... for 10 years, Emma was first... I have forgotten what it is like to be first... at least to myself....
Thank you to everyone, that has been on this ride with me, whether it be for the last 35 years, give or take, or just recently.... I cannot find the words to express just how much you all mean to me.... I love you....
Here's to a new journey, are you coming with me???
Any time that you move... even just next door... it is a clearing of things, and a cleansing of your soul... at first, I had such a hard time... I wasn't quite ready to address some of my issues, material-wise, I had so much crap... not that it was crap, just not useful to me... but I didn't take the time to rid myself of it.... and it's ironic, I finally went through everything, and still the things I brought to the new apartment, I look at it... and really.... still so much, that I don't need... and don't need to carry. In the same week that we finally got moved, completely, I was pushed to the brink of my sanity... I am not proud of those moments.... and emotionally, I was on a ride I did not ask for or expect. A few months ago, Emma's dad and I agreed to let her be with him for a year, give them a chance to get to know each other, and her family with him. Due to the transitions in his own life, we could not make that transition then, well, suffice it to say, Emma was not satisfied with that answer... last week, she went to live with her family. It's still the honeymoon period, but they all seem to be adjusting well, and getting along. Helps me to feel better about my decision, that I made the correct one. She has wanted a family for so long.... so so long, and I haven't been able to give her what she needs, I have felt like I failed her, I had to concede that her dad could and would give her what she needs and wants... a family with two parents and her sisters. Emotionally, the transitions are helping to clear out the garbage... all the things that no longer serve a purpose for me.... learn the lessons that I needed to or heal the pain.... let it go and move on.... I haven't settled myself in the new apartment, and without Emma seems so empty and quiet.... I don't like the quiet to be honest. It is a time now, for me to get to know myself, who I am, and what I truly desire, I know what I desire, it is just a matter of attaining those goals, healing and growing in my personal relationships, and learning how to take care of myself... it's strange... for 10 years, Emma was first... I have forgotten what it is like to be first... at least to myself....
Thank you to everyone, that has been on this ride with me, whether it be for the last 35 years, give or take, or just recently.... I cannot find the words to express just how much you all mean to me.... I love you....
Here's to a new journey, are you coming with me???
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